Persoalan.

Assalamualaikum.

Soalan-soalan ini ditanyakan pada aku pada suatu hari yang hening:

"Hai, bahagia nampak?"

"Boyfriend baru ke?"

"Apa cerita kau dengan yang dulu tu?"

"Macam mana boleh clash? Siapa yang buat hal?"

"Bila and macam mana boleh kenal dengan boyfriend baru ni?"

"Wah... dah maju kau sekarang eh?"

Kalau ini bentuk-bentuk soalan yang ingin kau tanyakan pada aku,

nasihat aku hanya satu:

Berhenti.

Unless korang nak tau how does it feel to be completely ignored, then silakan.

Sorry if I'm being rude.

Sebab sebelum ni pun, aku bahagia. 

Syukur Alhamdulillah, hidup aku lengkap serba serbi.

Dalam kesenangan kadang kala diuji, kerana aku adalah hamba-Nya.

Dan Dia telah menjanjikan yang seorang hamba itu takkan diuji melebihi kemampuannya.

Usah dilabel dengan "boyfriend baru".

Sebab aku bukannya tukar boyfriend macam tukar baju.

Jangan tanya aku apa yang terjadi antara aku dan dia yang dulu.

Sebab yang salahnya mungkin aku, mungkin juga dia. 

Tak perlu untuk aku membuka pekung di dada, tak perlu juga untuk aku membuka aib sesiapa.

Matikan cerita dengan ayat cliche, "Biarlah rahsia".

Aku tak mengerti.

Apa significant untuk kau mengetahui kisah aku dan dia.

Kerana aku bukan siapa-siapa.

Hanya seorang blogger picisan.

Dan...

"Maju".

...

Hello? Kau hidup zaman apa? Sebab manusia memang dah lama maju. 

Cuma sayangnya, dari segi akhlak dan adab, kita sememangnya semakin mundur. 

Maaf, tujuan post ini bukan untuk marah, bukan untuk sentap.

Hanya untuk menjawab persoalan mereka yang telah terlalu lama berlegar.

Maaf sekali lagi, kerana aku tak selesa membicarakan soal perasaan.

Doakan yang baik-baik sahaja harapnya.

Andai perubahan ini baik, biarkan aku. Andai ada khilafku, tegurlah dengan berhemah.

:)

Adios!

My Time of The Year.

Assalamualaikum.

I used to have plenty of reasons to dislike December.

The fact that I don't know since when, but it actually brings more tears than laughter, although there lies my birthday, a date that other people would jump up and down for when its theirs, but not me.

My birthday is a day to be forgotten.

The thing is, after a while, you're cool liddat. No longer waiting for your best friends to wish you in the middle of the night. No longer have to call them and say: " Hey, you've forgotten my birthday! But oh well never mind, let's just talk throughout the night!". No longer having to waste another day to fight with your boyfriend when there's another 364 days in a year to fight on.

Yup, after a while, doing all that feels weary, and I just stopped. Birthday calls will be wasted, but it never really mattered.

So usually, my birthday is a day where I just chill out with my family. A day where we ate cake together and have a family dinner.

That's how I go through 16th December every year.

And so, I was a little bit afraid of this year.

I'm celebrating my last 'teen' years, I'm in a new environment, I'm with new people, and yes, I'm afraid of what these changes would bring.

Which turns out to be a December to remember.

O' Allah.

I am forever thankful for everything.

For I am nothing but a slave of the Almighty.

I am thankful for the sorrows. I am thankful for the joy.

I am thankful for my parents, for they have raised me to be who I am.

Raising the only child they have, the only daughter (or maybe son), I think, wouldn't have been an easy task.

O' Allah.

I have been raised well, but I did wrong. I do not have the best qualities of a human, nor am I the most filial daughter to my parents.

But they are the only parents I have, and I pray that they are protected from the hellfire.

This December makes me appreciate them more, makes me remember that the older I grow, the more parts of me that they'd have to let go.

O' Allah.

I am forever thankful for the friends that stayed with me when I stand tall, and hold me closer when I fall. I am thankful for the happy memories we had together.

Despite that they forgotten about my birthday, it's fine. Because friendship isn't defined by the dates you remember; its by the strength of togetherness.

I am also thankful for those who walked away when I needed them most. They are nothing but lessons learnt, and may Allah protect them.

O' Allah.

I am forever thankful for a chance to dream. To dream my own dreams, and sharing dreams. Together.

And may those dreams forever be in Your favour.

O' Allah.

I love them, Lillahita'ala.

Thank you for the wishes, thank you for the doa. Forever appreciated, forever loved. :')

Adios!

Living in the clouds.

Assalamualaikum.

And hello everyone! Once again memunculkan diri setelah sekian lama menyepi. Maklumlah, virus malas makin menjadi-jadi. :P

Entah macam mana, datang pula hidayah nak tulis blog di petang yang hening ni. Dalam dingin hujan. Diiringi lagu daripada youtube. Eh kengkonon puitis pula.

It's already December. Coming towards the end of 2013.

Looking back, a lot have changed. But I can't really say how, or why. It just did. When I look at myself now and then... I stopped and took a deep breath.

Yes, change or no change, I'm still Nurul Syuhada Sulaiman.

It feels like time is moving way too fast forward.

And too many things happened, that I'm surprised I could keep track to most of them.

Graduated from asasi in April. Left UiTM Puncak Alam. Left my friends, my family and a piece of my heart there.

Then living life in agony. The boredom, the lifelessness.

Saved by an encounter. A lifetime chance that changed a lot of things. Meeting new people, sharing new experiences, feeling something awkward, something special. :)

MDS June 2013, left another piece of my heart at that moment, at that time and space.

Broke my heart as June ends. Put an end to what used to be a fairytale and moved on. Picked up the pieces and plastered it together again. Bowed to the audiences, expressed my gratitude, and walked away from the stage like a pro.

And I'm strong liddat.

Hyped on a new tune along my new journey, and it's been my favourite song since then.

If-you-know-what-I-mean.

And of course, reunions! From KL-Seremban-Shah Alam-Puncak Alam, chasing memories, one after another. Missing them more after every meet-up. Painfully wishing that I wasn't so far away from them everyday.

Do keep me in your memories.

It's December now. The month I dreaded most. But who knows, maybe this year will be different. Maybe it's time to believe that this December will be 'My December'.

"I hope I can make this December becomes your December."

:)

Now living the life that I wished for. The dream that I once thought will forever be a dream. The thick books, the stressful conversations. And I realized, I've only just started.

Still got a long way to go, an uneven path to walk on, a scary scenery, and what hopefully will be a beautiful destination. InsyaAllah.

So someone please slap me in the face because I should be studying for EOM next week and finals this coming January.

"Because behind the dark is just another mystery waiting to be solved."

Adios!

Reunited.

Assalamualaikum.

Last updated: September.

Like what? Sekarang dah November kot! Apa dah jadi dengan aku since then? Diam seribu bahasa. Busy sangat ke?

Answer: NO.

Surprising as it may sound, 1st semester untuk 1st year medical students UKM adalah sangat free. Kelas habis pukul 1.00 pm except for Thursdays. So what do we do on the other days?

Well, you can figure out what happens when you live too close to the city center. Enough said.

Now, cuti mid-sem. Just been home for one day and I'm already out-and-about, haha. Buat plan last minit pergi UiTM Shah Alam untuk berjumpa dengan B6 kesayangan. Rindu!

Hari sabtu, around noon, ayah sent me off kat kolej Melati, where I bunked at Hajar's room. 2 anak tunggal reunited! Lepas rehat2 kejap, keluar balik, naik bas ke sekyen 2. Along the way met with Khairie, and sangat sadis when the first thing he just HAD to say is:

"Syu, daripada luar tadi aku dah nampak kau, makin gemuk kau eh!"

"..."

Pasrah.

Okay foineeee. So went to seksyen 2, makan. Diorang lah makan, aku dah makan before jumpa tu, makan dengan ayah, so saving sikit kekeke. Then time makan tu Amir buat surprise muncul tiba-tiba je, terkezuuuut mak tau tetiba je ada orang duduk kat seat depan kita, ingat mamat mana lah nak acah-acah ngorat hahaha *mohon jealous ye ehem ehem ;p*

Lepas makan, the plan was nak pergi tasik. Then entah macam mana dalam bas tu:

"Eh, jom pergi PALAM nak?"

Memang lawak stunt habis bincang pasal nak pergi PALAM tetiba depan pintu bas kat PKNS. So we got off, bincangkan beberapa faktor yang menyokong keputusan untuk ke PALAM (read: hujan lebat) before finally sebulat suara bersetuju untuk tunggu bas ke UiTM Puncak Alam yang tercinta! Spent 1 jam setengah dalam bas hanya untuk ke PALAM, nampak tak gigih tak gigih semangat kitorang walaupun ada orang meracau nak turun bas balik Shah Alam sebab risaukan kain jemuran yang basah dek hujan kahkahkah.

Actually, now I'm feeling so so so like going to Shah Alam again sebab rasa macam ruginyaaaa tak sempat pergi tasik, lepak-lepak and picnic together dengan diorang. Hmm tapi simpan je la niat ni untuk lain kali huhu.

And so, sampai PALAM and kedatangan kami disambut oleh Aisyah & Wani! Aaaaaa rasa nak menjerit rindu! Walaupun just dapat jumpa sekejap, but its better than nothing kan? Bila lagi nak jumpa macam ni? Walaupun penat duduk dalam bas lama-lama, but I loved every single part of it.

Excited kemain tahu bila sampai dekat pintu ni? Feeling so epic man!

B6 Family reunited :)

Sesi coolblog! :)

#macamsweetje

NurulSyuhadaSulaiman, ada juga kena bash dengan B6 sebab hashtag ni nanti kekeke.

Arrived Shah Alam malam tu dalam pukul 9 or 10. Balik bilik and sambung kegilaan di Whatsapp B6. Haihhh sabor je la aku dengan kembar aku yang mulut celupar ni eiii:

"Syu makin sihat aku tengok... hoho"

"macam makan dalam je~"

Day 2, pagi tu aku tidur sepuas hati sementara Hajar buat kerja. Kesian, time cuti-cuti dengan B6 ni pun still kena buat kerja. Nasib baik aku cuti muahahahaha *evil laugh*. Plan dengan the guys (Anas, Khairie, Afiq) nak jumpa tengahari untuk lunch together kat Big Taste. Tunggu punya tunggu sampai lepas Zohor baru diorang sampai sebab sangkut kat traffic jam (Final Kelantan vs. Pahang di Stadium Shah Alam kan, so the jam must be unbearable).

Then headed off to SACC Mall (Big Taste tutup T.T) where Anas drove like pakcik bas PALAM, boleh tahan terpelanting juga la kitorang kat belakang, hahaa. Had lunch kat Noodle Station. And surprise, surprise, Amir buat kezuuuutan lagi, mencicit datang join kitorang! I had Tom Yam Seafood with Spring Noodle and Iced Mocha sodap!

:')

Masa makan lupa diri nak ambil gambar, sempat ambil gambar Khairie dengan air dia yang mengancam ni je hehe.

Afiq and his surprises, thank you! :')

Lepas makan, redah hujan sama-sama (walapun Afiq dibebel-bebel since dia baru baik demam dah nak kena redah hujan lagi haha kesian) pergi Plaza Alam Sentral and main bowling.

"Walk with me, in rain or shine." :')

B6 Bowling :)

Photo-whoring jangan dilupa!

Memory lost, ni nak bergambor ke main bowling ni oii?

Le anak tunggals :)

Najihah, tengok tu anak kau buat muka monyet dia! Hahaha

Haih, then tiba masa untuk pulang ke Seremban. Kena balik awal sebab ayah tak nak sangkut traffic jam orang pergi stadium. Uwaaaaa sedih sangat! Rasa macam tak nak je balik sebab singkat sangat masa kita berjumpa :(

Semoga kita berjumpa lagi B6, InsyaAllah. Me miss all of you like crazy :(

Of course, tak dilupa juga B6 Family yang berada di perantauan. We can't wait for you to come back! Jangan nangis okay? Kita tabah sama-sama :')

My time and soul stopped at 4:21 pm :(

Adios!

Tetiba je dah 2nd week.

Assalamualaikum.

Currently di atas katil Bilik A216, Kolej Tun Syed Nasir, Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia, Jalan Temerloh, 53200 Kuala Lumpur. Nah amekkau kasi alamat penuh lagi. Siapa yang rasa nak tulis surat kat aku boleh je hantarkan kat alamat yang diberi.

Kisahnya dah dua minggu berada di sini. Tapi tak terasa lama pun sebab so far every weekend balik muahaha. Last week, we had orientation week a.k.a. Minggu Mesra Pelajar (MMP). Macam biasalah, minggu orientasi mana tak penat kan? Tambahan pulak kami warga KTSN yang kat KL ni dok mengulang pi kampus induk kat Bangi. Memang hectic gila. But by the end of the week we had a jolly good time.

Wardrobe. Ni sebenarnya my roomie punya side, saje pinjam buat bergambor.

My bed! Rasa macam..... slightly feminine maybe? Hahahahahahahaha.

Eksaited tayang kad matriks.

Muka dilebarkan. Kenapa??? -____-"

Dewan Cancelor Tun Abdul Razak (DECTAR)

Keadaan students yang masih aman sebelum perang DECTAR. Hahaha

Inilah my roomie, Najwa :)

Exco Multimedia Persembahan "Tiga Abdul" untuk Malam MMP tengah menyemak kacau Exco Props buat kerja. 

Make-up artist & Abdul Wahib!

Practice make-up kan orang.

Entah macam mana, aku pun dijadikan bahan uji kaji make-up diorang -__-"

Pak Aji!

Mereka yang bertanggungjawab memeriahkan DSG. Jia You!

Rafidah in the making :)

Kumpulan koir

2nd week, hari Isnin tu ada taklimat fakulti. Selasa tu pula pergi kem PPD di Ulu Seperi, Rembau most wanted yaww! Kem 3 days and 2 nights tu memang best, especially last day ada jungle trekking, explorace and mandi sungai yeah!

Oh, and the fact that group 13 menang pertandingan sketsa and got a huge hamper as a prize doesn't hurt too. Go SUM! :)

Picnic kengkononnya hahah

Group SUM: Shine & United in Medicine :)

With Fatin & our SUM flag!

Romeo and Juliet oii hahaha

1st prize! ^^

Got back here petang Khamis, kepenatan gila sampai balik tu tak menyempat buka tudung dah terkulai me and my roomate atas katil. Malam tu balik daripada usrah pun sama, tertidur dua-dua sampai lampu pun tak tutup hahaha.

Jumaat pagi balik rumah maklong. Semak gila every weekend balik haha. Then overnight kat Seremban pastu Sabtu malam balik KTSN balik. Today, yakni hari Ahad, kebosanan tahap guling guling. Supposedly Faiz ajak jenjalan tapi hmm keadaan tak mengizinkan, mungkin takde rezeki kami harini. Esok hopefully hopefully hopefully hopefully, plan nak keluar dengan ahli keluarga B6 yang berada di area berdekatan menjadi. Because I really need that sweet escape right now. It's so depressing here :'(

What awaits me come Tuesday. Sigh. Wish me luck!

That's all for now. Adios!