Assalamualaikum everyone. Its been a while since I've updated my blog, but sadly, I came back only to share with you a sad story.
Once upon a time, there lived two kids: a girl and a boy.
And they were in love.
So from friendship, they established a loving relationship. They were happy.
But the sun doesn't always stay up. Darkness started to fill in its place. The fights, the drama, the misery... its all too unbearable.
One day, the girl decided to leave. She thought it was for the best. She wanted the both of them to learn from their past mistakes. They have changed so much in the past 4 years. Too much that they lost themselves.
Surprisingly, she'd just realised that they were still kids. Kids in need of attention, in need of care, in need of a person to depend on. And they can't give those needs to each other. They don't even understand or know well enough of one another. Its a miracle even that this relationship lasted for so long. She doesn't know what he'd scored for his exams, for goodness sake. How can a relationship be built on so much love but so little trust?
By doing this horrible, horrible thing, she hoped some day in the future, if destiny allows them to be together again, she wanted them to be more mature to save this love they had. She wanted him to wait for her to be a better person.
She knew she was selfish and cruel, but she had no choice. She loved him so much. She doesnt want to lose him. Not now, not later, not even forever.
But she can't stay. She doesn't want to see this relationship go on without a clear future. She didn't want them to hold on to this relationship just because they have been together for too long. Because she knew if they did, they would only fall deeper and harder onto the ground.
Regret? Last night, she spent the whole night crying while hugging the panda stuffed toy he gave her. She felt regret at every passing second. She wanted him back. She didn't want to lose someone who appreciated her so much. She wanted him to stay in her life. But she knew she couldn't do that. She knew she was asking for too much. Its hard. Maybe this was some sort of punishment for her. Maybe... she deserved it.
Befor she left, she gave him a few advises. She told him to be more mature, to be a person she depend on when hard times come by. She told him to learn how to take care of a person he loves. She told him to learn to understand. She told him not to push someone away when he's feeling lonely, sad or depressed.
Oh.... yeah, that girl was me. And that boy was Wan Amirul Hafiz.
HnS, 24/1/2009 - 27/2/2013.
Thanks for everything. I'm sorry that this is worse anniversary gift I had to offer.
I just want to say, whenever you feel distance between us, please read this blog post. Because I left my heart here for you.
Goodbye.
