My Time of The Year.

Assalamualaikum.

I used to have plenty of reasons to dislike December.

The fact that I don't know since when, but it actually brings more tears than laughter, although there lies my birthday, a date that other people would jump up and down for when its theirs, but not me.

My birthday is a day to be forgotten.

The thing is, after a while, you're cool liddat. No longer waiting for your best friends to wish you in the middle of the night. No longer have to call them and say: " Hey, you've forgotten my birthday! But oh well never mind, let's just talk throughout the night!". No longer having to waste another day to fight with your boyfriend when there's another 364 days in a year to fight on.

Yup, after a while, doing all that feels weary, and I just stopped. Birthday calls will be wasted, but it never really mattered.

So usually, my birthday is a day where I just chill out with my family. A day where we ate cake together and have a family dinner.

That's how I go through 16th December every year.

And so, I was a little bit afraid of this year.

I'm celebrating my last 'teen' years, I'm in a new environment, I'm with new people, and yes, I'm afraid of what these changes would bring.

Which turns out to be a December to remember.

O' Allah.

I am forever thankful for everything.

For I am nothing but a slave of the Almighty.

I am thankful for the sorrows. I am thankful for the joy.

I am thankful for my parents, for they have raised me to be who I am.

Raising the only child they have, the only daughter (or maybe son), I think, wouldn't have been an easy task.

O' Allah.

I have been raised well, but I did wrong. I do not have the best qualities of a human, nor am I the most filial daughter to my parents.

But they are the only parents I have, and I pray that they are protected from the hellfire.

This December makes me appreciate them more, makes me remember that the older I grow, the more parts of me that they'd have to let go.

O' Allah.

I am forever thankful for the friends that stayed with me when I stand tall, and hold me closer when I fall. I am thankful for the happy memories we had together.

Despite that they forgotten about my birthday, it's fine. Because friendship isn't defined by the dates you remember; its by the strength of togetherness.

I am also thankful for those who walked away when I needed them most. They are nothing but lessons learnt, and may Allah protect them.

O' Allah.

I am forever thankful for a chance to dream. To dream my own dreams, and sharing dreams. Together.

And may those dreams forever be in Your favour.

O' Allah.

I love them, Lillahita'ala.

Thank you for the wishes, thank you for the doa. Forever appreciated, forever loved. :')

Adios!